The Journey Begins

I was paralyzed a little over 3 years ago from the waist down. This happened to me because I was a heroin addict. I started on regular pain pills and gradually went to roxycodone. When the governmment started cracking down on controlled substances I then moved onto becoming a heroin addict because of how much cheaper and how easily it was to get it than any type of prescription drug.

It actually was an airborn infection from the needle I used that got me. It is like a 1 in a million chances of this happening. It happened to me. When I shot up one time my body did not fight off what it was supposed to fight off .  So this infection started taking over my entire body. It eventually lodged itself into my spinal cord. I woke up one day and could not move my legs.

I was then taken to St Vincent Hospital in Indianapolis where they performed emergency spinal cord surgery on me. Which left me paralyzed from the waist down. I was very lucky to have not lost my life actually. If the infection had reached my heart there would have been nothing they could have done for me. My Dr’s did not actually say that I would never walk again, but they told me and my family not to get our hopes up because of the amount of infection they had to remove from my spinal cord.

I am now actually not only walking again, but I am walking unassisted. I do not have to even use a cane to walk. (Though it does help me walk better and not look like a drunk at times) I have also been off of the needle for over 3 years. With no desire at all to use opiates. Even though I am now in way more pain every day of my life than I ever had back before this happened to me. I have been slowly trying to change my life around. It is very hard to change who you are after you have been that person for longer than you can remember.

But it is possible! And it will not happen overnight. And you are not going to become a perfect person. You will still make mistakes. But you have to learn to forgive yourself for these mistakes and move on. Especially from all those mistakes and feelings of guilt from your past. If you don’t, then you will leave yourself open to being pulled right back into that old behavior and lifestyle.

I want to help others, but I don’t even pretend to act like I have all of the answers. And I am not perfect and will never be perfect. But I do know addicts and their behaviors. And I know what type of hell you live through as an addict. All the prejudisms that people have toward addicts. How they are treated by society. How the government wants to treat addicts like they are criminals and punish you if you cannot control your addiction.

Well addiction is a disease. Do you get treated like a criminal for being a diabetic? Do you have to go live in a cage with murderers, child molesters, and other criminal types for not controlling your diabetes?

So forgive me for not feeling as though this is the answer or the way to help the problems this country is facing concerning addiction. Check out Netherlands “Free Trade” they have going on. And what type of results they have had from doing this.

I will post next time all about what it is for anyone who does not know what I am talking about or cannot find it.

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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