I am posting pictures of my daughters first layout in a magazine. She has been an alternative model for a while now, but what makes this even more awesome is the fact she is not only a model, she also does her own SFX makeup.
She has always been an awesome artist, starting out with our walls when she was 2-16. Yes, even at 16 she was still drawing on my walls! She then moved onto tattooing and drawing.
Well she was awesome at tattooing but she didn’t stick with it for too long before she discovered her talent with SFX.
And one of the most awesome things about her is how she does these things to her own face. I can’t imagine doing all that to someone else. That would be hard enough in my opinion. But doing it on yourself really blows my mind away!
She is also a dancer and a pole instructor in Indianapolis. So check her out at one of the links I will be sharing below. And check back as I will post more on her progress into the world of SFX! Along with new pictures or videos she posts!
Please help share any pictures or videos you may like to help get her face and name out there for the world to see!
Pictures of her winning one of the pole competitions up in Indianapolis. pictures of Mackenzie modeling as an alternative model.
The pictures below are from Mackenzies 5 Page layout in the October 2018 Elan Vital Magazine
They are a little hard to see because of the plastic I have over them to protect them.
I was paralyzed a little over 5 years ago from the waist down. This happened to me because I was a heroin addict. I started on regular pain pills and gradually went to roxycodone. When the governmment started cracking down on controlled substances I then moved onto becoming a heroin addict because of how much cheaper and how much easier it was to acquire.
It was an airborn infection from the needle I used that got me. It is like a 1 in a million chances of this happening. Pretty crazy odds I know, but it happened to me. My body did not fight off what it was supposed to fight off while I was injecting myself. So this infection started taking over my entire body. It eventually lodged itself into my spinal cord. I woke up one day and could not move my legs.
Right after I got out of my spinal cord surgery which left me paralyzed from the waist down.
I was then taken to St Vincent Hospital in Indianapolis where they performed emergency spinal cord surgery on me. Which left me paralyzed from the waist down. I was very lucky to have not lost my life actually. If the infection had reached my heart there would have been nothing they could have done for me. My Dr’s did not actually say that I would never walk again, but they told me and my family not to get our hopes up. They told us this because of the amount of infection they had to remove from my spinal cord.
Me in my wheelchair at my youngest daughters high school graduation above.
I am not only walking again, I am walking unassisted. I do not have to even use a cane to walk. (Though it does help me walk better and not look like a drunk at times) I have also been off of the needle for over 3 years. I have no desire these days to use opiates. Even though I am now in way more pain than I ever was before this happened to me. I have been slowly trying to change my life around. It is very hard to change who you are after you have been that person for longer than you can remember.
But it is possible! And it will not happen overnight. And you are not going to become a perfect person. You will still make mistakes. But you have to learn to forgive yourself for these mistakes and move on. Especially from all those mistakes and feelings of guilt from your past. If you don’t, then you will leave yourself open to being pulled right back into that old behavior and lifestyle.
I want to help others, but I don’t even pretend to act like I have all of the answers. And I am not perfect and will never be perfect. But I do know addicts and their behaviors. And I know what type of hell you live through as an addict. All the prejudisms that people have toward addicts. How they are treated by society. The government wants to treat addicts like they are criminals and punish them if they cannot control themselves with their drug of choice.
Well addiction is a disease. Do you get treated like a criminal for being a diabetic? Do you have to go live in a cage with murderers, child molesters, and other criminal types for not controlling your diabetes?
So forgive me for not feeling as though this is the answer or the way to help the problems this country is facing concerning addiction. Check out Netherlands Free Trade they have going on. And what type of results they have had from doing this.
Well I am running a bit behind on posting this. I have been having really bad neck pain lately and will probably have to go to the er soon if it doesn’t stop. So it’s put me behind that is for sure.
So I wanted to talk a little bit on what I have found besides just the screws that I have thought were cameras. I do believe some of these screws I have found in my home are actually cameras. A lot probably are not. I will elaborate a little more on why I thought that there might be cameras in my home in the first place.
A couple of years ago I had a friend who warned me on the fact that someone might be watching me on camera’s. And actually taking the footage from these cameras and putting them on porn site’s. Basically making money from me and my boyfriend without our knowledge. So I was not too thrilled with this info and he was very sketchy with his info he gave me.
Basically just giving me an idea and a lot of worries in my head on something that I don’t know crap about. And didn’t have the first clue as to how to go about finding out who was doing it, where these camera’s were hidden in the trailer, or where to look online to find out if there were videos of us out there.
So I stressed and nothing ever came of it. I didn’t know where to look. And didn’t even know for sure if it was real. My friend was not like quoting something to me that he could completely stand on. This was his opinion I guess from what he had heard from someone else.
So anyway I somehow got to the right porn site this time with my investigating behind the scenes. Because I found some very interesting videos on there that I can’t swear to it on whether it is me and him or not. Sounds crazy I know. But when it comes to homemade porn or the hidden cam porns, quality is definitely not what you are getting! And in many of them they keep the faces out of the feed. Then they also can change your background, and change how you look even.
Now I am not good enough at video editing to do these things, but I know that many people out there are. I can do it on photos. I have changed all types of things in some of my still pictures. But video I have never done.
So I am trying to figure out how to get through about a billion things of porn to find the ones that I am suspicious of. And I think that whoever is doing it is taking some of the videos off as I am trying to find them. Because a couple of the videos were yanked right when I started looking into them a little more.
I guess I could be just paranoid lol. And I am not swearing that the videos are of us. I can only say right now that a few I have found were very suspicious to me. The body language is the thing that is making me look into them a little more. You can change a lot of stuff but you can’t really change a person’s body language.
So whether I am paranoid or possibly someone has been spying I thought it would be a good idea to post this just for awareness. For there may be some people out there who are unaware of how crazy it has gotten these days when it comes to spyware. The stuff just gets tinier, easier to use, and cheaper to get. So I would definitely recommend for those of you who might be thinking that someone knows a little more about your whereabouts than they really should know, to check into it a little deeper.
So I am going to once again talk about spy camera’s. And how easy they are find, and how cheap they are to purchase. As you can see from my Amazon Affiliate ad they do not run too high for the mini spyware type items. Around $40 for the ones on the ad, and I saw them anywhere from $4.99-$19.99 on Amazon.
I am still searching through my home trying to find anything that looks out of the ordinary when it comes to screws, pictures, clocks, and anything else that looks like it could possibly house something made to spy on you. I have found about 15 more of these screws, or similar types of screws that I have been suspicious of. So I have began taking those screws out of the walls, and started taking every single screw throughout the trailer that is not actually being used.
I have also started covering up the ones that are suspected of foul play with duct tape. This at least is a quick and easy way to get rid of possible prying eyes quickly and without the use of any tools. And let me tell you about the work I have already put into this! And I only live in a 2 bedroom trailer! But what makes it a lot harder is the fact that the trailer is old. And the trailer walls are not exactly new construction going on!
I have fixed it up a whole lot from what it was when I first bought it approximately 3 years ago. It was livable, but did it need some fixing up! So I bought it on contract and have had it paid off for a while now. Which is awesome! Now all I have is my lot rent to pay and my utilities. Much better than forking over $300-$500 every single month, plus utilities usually, for the rest of my life for something I would never own. (At least that is my opinion) To each their own.
So because my trailer is a bit old and “janked” up this makes it really hard to spot spyware throughout the place. There are at least a 100 screw holes that are not even being used at this moment in every different room. Not including the actual pictures that I have hanging up. And I have seemed to acquire some crap there throughout these last few years!
So I have really been putting it in with the finding of the camera;s! The pictures above were taken of my trailer right before we even had a truckload there. So you can see by the pictures that there was most certainly some work to be done to call that place a home.
And hear are a few decent pictures of what it looks like now 3 years later. You will have to forgive the messes everywhere. I don’t believe I will ever get myself caught up around here.
So hear are the latest pictures of screws I have found. Check them out!
I am no expert and I guess I could be mistaken on whether or not these screws are cameras or not. But they do look like something is going on down in them. And I used a couple phone apps to try and see if they hit on the screws as opposed to other screws I didn’t see anything down in. Hidden App Detector was one of them I used that was free and seemed to work pretty decent with not going off over everything, and going on when there were cameras around.
I tested it out with a couple of my security cameras I have. And while not perfect, it definitely helps to eliminate a lot of the ones that are not. Some people think that they don’t look like anything and others think they possibly could be. I will eventually take them to someone who knows more about these things than I do. But there are other things that have happened through the years that has lead me to believe that there was a possibility that cameras were being used in my home.
So I will hit on more of the facts surrounding my reasoning that these are small cameras in my next blog post. There has been a lot that has happened and I have just possibly found some of my answers that I had been looking for. So until next time.
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Today I decided to post about my recent find in my home. I have discovered about 20 tiny camera’s so far.
Here is a collage I did of some that I found so far. They are inside of the screw heads. Looking just like any normal everyday screw. And used just like any normal everyday screw.
Until you start looking down into them with some light, or you get one of those hidden device detectors on them. I went through with an app called hidden device detector. Which actually worked pretty well! For the most part it was on it every time.
I would put screws that had nothing in them in front of my phone and it would not hardly make a peep. I would put the others in front and it would go off completely.
So after testing them out for a while I then started taking it through my home trying to save some time on finding the rest. And it did work a lot better than just going through and taking every screw out of your home. I don’t know about you but I have a lot of screws in my home! Way more than I would have ever imagined!
I have more information and tips for how to protect yourself against these types of Spyware, that I will share in my next post.
But if you check out my Amazon affiliate advertisement below, you can see how easy and how affordable it is to get these screws. Anyone can go online and buy them for little of nothing.